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Jun. 8th, 2013 10:31 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
aoikurashikiOften Aoi felt the need to just sit in the dark in a corner of his room. It had been a long day and the new year was about to begin.
Should he feel happy?
He certainly didn't think so. He believed he didn't deserve to.
Day after day had brought pain and more pain. Tonight had been a near breaking point. Aoi tried to busy himself so he didn't have to think.
Get him alone and he thinks too much. Too much about how he tried his best to provide for her. To protect her. To make things almost normal.
That was..Back when she was alive of course.
He pulled his knees to his chest and sighed. The holidays made things rough when he was alone.
He beat himself up over and over again but it never brought him solace.
In fact it made everything worse.
Should he feel happy?
He certainly didn't think so. He believed he didn't deserve to.
Day after day had brought pain and more pain. Tonight had been a near breaking point. Aoi tried to busy himself so he didn't have to think.
Get him alone and he thinks too much. Too much about how he tried his best to provide for her. To protect her. To make things almost normal.
That was..Back when she was alive of course.
He pulled his knees to his chest and sighed. The holidays made things rough when he was alone.
He beat himself up over and over again but it never brought him solace.
In fact it made everything worse.